My birthday is coming up in a couple of weeks, I didn't want to think about it, or even remember it, but it is kind of unavoidable....it is a big one this year...well maybe not to some....but usually 20 is when you feel like a responsible Adult....25 you know it all....by 30 you want to have it all....and by 35 well....nervous break down time right? I read few years ago that the age for the midlife crisis is gone as low as 30....this year I am kind of struggling with my inner emotions and my logical side of the brain to ensure I am making the right decisions and setting the right steps...

I used to have a life plan and have it all mapped out in front of me...it worked as long as it was just me...but when you are a couple...oh well....I am way behind my life plan....oh hell I am way behind everything and I know I am the only one to blame...for not setting my foot down and saying it how it should be!

I'm starting to wonder if whether or not my husband will ever be ready for a child....Having a baby is a monumental, lifelong commitment that no one should be coerced into...We both knew that we wanted a child before we got married....these days when I look at a baby he just turns away...and every-time it is as if someone stabs me in my stomach....thanks for the support mate!

I read somewhere in one of the forums something in regard to having kids..."I personally think that if you have to convince your husband to have a baby, it's a relationship that ready for doom" ...

Well then I guess we are doomed...If I had thought for a second that he wasn't at all interested in having a child with me, or would have been difficult to talk to about it and wouldn't "try" to conceive, I would not have married him.

I do wish that he was upfront with me from the beginning of our relationship ....
and I do understand it when he says flat out that he wants to be sure we are in good financial standings first...I agree with that and for the past 6 years that has been my thinking exactly...but we are in a good place now and delaying it further with the clock ticking for us could just lead to further problems down the line...and I seriously don't want to get to a point that I resent him for denying me a child...