In desperate love, we always invent the characters of our partners, demanding they be what we need of them, and then feeling devastated when they refuse to perform the role we created in the first place...

Eternity is a tricky concept

When fairytales inform us that 'they all lived happily ever after', they never specify how happily - or for how long that 'ever after' lasted. If it really was for ever after, then it still must be happening now. Somewhere, in some hidden corner of our world, must be loads of ageing but blissful princes, princesses, frogs, dragons, kings and witches. Eternity is a tricky concept. We just don't have time to sit around long enough to figure out what it means. But 'happiness' is a much easier idea to understand.

I alos believe happiness is the consequence of personal effort. You fight for it, strive for it, insist upon it, and sometimes even travel around the world looking for it. You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestations of your own blessings. And once you have achieved a state of happiness, you must never become lax about maintaining it. You must make a mighty effort to keep swimming upward into that happiness forever, to stay afloat on top of it...

And it's easy to feel, too......and when you feel otherwise...what then? would the 'ever after' be compromised?

Few things are completely impossible, but many are very difficult. When we take on a tough task or set ourselves an ambitious target, we have to try to make sure that our other commitments are relatively easy to keep up.

To get what I want after now,...or keep who I am...I know for sure I may have to compromise the quality of some other aspect of me life.... This may yet have more repercussions than I realise...or comprehend now...maybe I need more time to clear my head think hard before I decide...

Perhaps, it's better to do one thing right than two, badly....

This is a good sign, having a broken heart. It means I have tried for something...

I have a history of making decisions very quickly about men. I have fallen in love fast and without measuring risks... have a tendency not only to see the best in him, but to assume that he is emotionally capable of reaching his highest potential. I have fallen in love with the highest potential of a man, rather than with the man himself, and I have hung on to the relationship for a long time (sometimes far too long) waiting for the man to ascend to his own greatness. Many times in romance I have been a victim of my own optimism.